Wednesday, August 31, 2011

A Loving Husband in the Storm...

It is so important to seek God in all that you do with every decision, and every move you may make. In all honesty at a time I wanted to walk away, but each time I would seek God first, and the voice of the Lord told me to be still....Because of obedience I learned to really understand what it means to love through difficult times, to still cook when you don't want to, or even still say I love you, when I really don't like you, lol! But in all seriousness today I need my husband like I never thought I would. During this storm in our life he has assured me that the battle is the both of ours, but the vision is already foreseen. His hands interlocks with mines carrying me through this time of contemplating decisions helping me to understand that we connect for a reason. His love is in his eyes when he looks at me, he's two steps ahead of me to every appointment, and the one that has made me okay today for tomorrow's unknown. I Thank God for my husband, because he sent someone in my life that has chose to love me anyhow, through the ups and downs we both decided to love anyhow, and alot average folk I know will love from a distance. But we don't have a distant kind of love, we got a up close, and personal kinda thing and I'm grateful! Take time out for a moment today, and tell him or her "you know what, I really love you:) :)

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Just a small thing to a Giant...

Just a small thing to a Giant, that's what I was told softly by a friend today as I sat here in my living room. Some words spoken can touch you so deeply and take on an effect almost like an analgesic for a nagging headache. Soft spoken words can get the job done. Is it ever coincidental when one comes near with just the right words at the right appointed time? Jesus knows our hearts and what we thinketh before we think it. So you have to know the Lord cares enough to send whomever, whenever with words of encouragement, strength, and hope to assure you of his goodness.  You never know what a person may be going through.  I sit here this evening with two scars across my left breast that only reminds me of the scars that Christ has already bared for me. I want to take the time even in my pain to pray for someone who may be experiencing the same, or something quite different. I Pray for her, the little one who covers her ears daily due to the sounds of profanity, and the permanent scars that are meant to destroy her even in her womanhood. So I Pray for her, the woman who sits in the corner of the window with tears that meet the rain shed on the windowpane, as she remembers her childhood, regretting her past, and feels she lost way to her sense of hope for her future. I pray for him the little one who has no known male figure in his life. No one to tell him what's wrong and what's right molding him to be the God fearing man that can create change in circumstances. I Pray for him, the man who has diligently tried to be the head of his household, but the constant attacks of being let down, and turned away, keeps him from being the man he needs to be. I Pray for a Peace that passes all understanding. I Pray that every door that has closed new ones have already open. I Pray for healing of the minds, heart, and sickness. I Pray that all who doesn't know,  began to desire, crave, and ache for the love of God to show them the way of true redemption. Amen...It's just a small thing to a Giant..ummmmmm


Sunday, August 28, 2011

I don't mind being in the background, how about you?


I Pray for You..You Pray for Me..That's what it's all about!


When the season Change..

Some have heard of my poem entitled "When the season Change" and some have not but when learning of my diagnosis quite naturally I added this piece to it!


 When the season change so does she
 and it's that time of year when those
words came across that she never wanted
to hear. Hello Dr. Summers how are you?
I'm okay but I have some bad news
I know you wanted to hear it's benign and
you'll be fine, but i'm sorry it's malignant but don't
worry we'll win this. I won't ask why me,
but God can this be? Is this what you meant when
you said it is my duty, So carry the cross?
But comfort from you told me my child there
will be no loss I cried out but Father how do
I know I'll be fine, what if the Doctor is lying
I'm far too young to be dying, please Lord
send me a sign and, your voice said simply
I never said I sent YOU to the front line friend.

My Purpose

I am here sharing to the world of my diagnosis of breast cancer because I feel the need to uplift, inspire, and encourage others. It's easy to say you can do this! Or you'll be okay, when you haven't walked that journey. So like I said I'm Pink with a Purpose! I'm living this thing, breathing this thing, and will beat this thing, and you can too! I pray that all that I have gone through, and whatever it is ahead of me to tackle, will help instill the kind of faith in you to keep you pushing, pressing, and believing! I walk by faith and not by sight. God is in the lead, and I don't mind. From the very first moment of learning of this diagnosis I never questioned why, or felt defeated. Something stirred up in me rather quickly instead. I thought of a book, so I started the first chapter so far. I thought of a stage play so I wrote one so far. I thought of various ways to hold events that I can raise money and donate to the many foundations supporting cancer. So if I'm talking to someone personally that may be going through this, or maybe even someone that may be struggling with other issues, just know that my God has no respect of person, he doesn't just love me he loves you too! If he did it for me he can do it for you! Don't just read that but believe it wholeheartedly, that is thee only way mountains began to move. Don't trust in me, but always trust in him. He won't fail you:) Many Blessings People, keep smiling:)

God Is So I Am: Transfer your Worry List to your Prayer List!

God Is So I Am: Transfer your Worry List to your Prayer List!: Okay what a day I had on Tuesday 8/23/11...It all started while being at my med cart preparing meds for a patient when two nurses at the nur...

God Is So I Am: If God is for Me Who Shall Be Against Me?

God Is So I Am: If God is for Me Who Shall Be Against Me?: Malachi 4:2 But for you who fear my name, the sun of righteousness shall rise with healing in its wings. So Tomorrow is the big day, the d...

If God is for Me Who Shall Be Against Me?

Malachi 4:2 But for you who fear my name, the sun of righteousness shall rise with healing in its wings. So Tomorrow is the big day, the day I enter on a stretcher, and put under anesthesia for the Surgeon to find what the real deal is with this tumor that has developed. Am I afraid? Of course not, if my God is for me who or what shall be against me? I don't mind standing in the backround and allowing God to take the lead. For this day that has not appeared has already. My only job is to keep the kind of peace that passes all understanding, and trust that he has me in the palms of his hands. For this I know, and for this I pray all of you that reads this know. There is nothing too hard, big, or small for the Lord, and he can do all but FAIL...You may have heard those lines time and time again, so isn't it time to start believing it? I'm Pink but with a Purpose, Be Blessed all, and keep smiling:) :) :)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Transfer your Worry List to your Prayer List!

Okay what a day I had on Tuesday 8/23/11...It all started while being at my med cart preparing meds for a patient when two nurses at the nurses station within two feet from me started talking. Okay I know this is common, this is what people do right? Right! It just so happens though the conversation was about young women dying of breast cancer...hummmm. The stories continue each with an ending of death..This must be some sort of cruel joke, it's no way this is happening I thought. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs letting them know HEY I HAVE BREAST CANCER BUT GUESS WHAT I'M GOING TO LIVE!!!! The internal part of me spoke, so I quickly felt relieved and went in my patient's room, and thought to myself well God that must had to happen for material for my book:) I was all smiles from that point on.

Let's back track a little I was told on Monday that my insurance won't cover my genetic testing which determines what type of surgery i'm due to have in a matter of a week, and by the way it won't cover your surgery either unless you pay 5,000 first. Oh my, my, my...I began to think of all the things I could do, so I called my insurance carrier. Hello how are you? Just want to know if it's possible to upgrade my plan? I'm sorry but you can't you have what we call a pre-existing condition. Okay next! I call another insurance carrier that insures those with pre-existing conditions, but as I reviewed the policies I find that the monthly rate is close to the cost of my mortgage payments. Oh wow.....Certainly I must do something so I don't care, I just have to pay it right? Wrong, God says I know of your needs before you, so you better believe he had my back up plan already in place little did I know.
So moving forward again, I sat in my car enjoying my lunch when all of a sudden my car rocked back and forth. I was convinced someone was hiding behind my trunk rocking me, certainly the wind was not that forceful on this cool 85 degrees day. While returning back at the nurses station I learned we experienced an earthquake. What!!! In the city of Philadelphia!!! Later that evening I began to read my word and this is what it read: Psalms 18:6
In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God:he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even unto his ears. Then the EARTH SHOOK and TREMBLED; the foundations also of the hills MOVED and were SHAKEN.

I don't have to spell it out for you, only simply tell you God serves as a reminder I don't care who tells you NO! Or what doors is slammed in your face! If God says BE...IT IS! My God cause the earth to shake to let me know there is nothing he can't do...Just to let you know I got a call that same day from the Hospital letting me know to come in the next morning to fill out paperwork for what they call back up coverage..What!!! I don't have to spell it out for you, or do I? GOD IS SO I AM!!!! I AM PINK WITH A PURPOSE...BE BLESSED MY PEOPLE:) :) KEEP SMILING!