Thursday, June 27, 2013

The Beginning

      Today is the beginning of a healthier me. Today is the beginning of a healthier you. Today is the beginning of a healthier mindset. Today is the beginning of healthier choices. It all starts today. If not today, then when? So with that in mind, my sister and I decided to take this fitness journey together. We've realized we do just about everything together, so why not live a healthier life together. We all need accountability partners with certain things in life. I am accountable for her, and she is accountable for me. I don't just want her to grow old I want to see her grow old. I want for her the things I want for myself. When I was diagnosed with Breast Ca in 8/11 God showed me in scripture it is promised to me threescore and ten in Psalms 90:10. but how will I live to see that day if I'm slowly destroying myself now. It all comes down to the choices we make. Well today I choose Life over Death. I choose a 'Healthier Lifestyle' over 'Just for the Vacation Body'. I Choose 'Change' over 'Business As Usual'. What About You? Let's Do this, and Accomplish What They Never Thought We Could. 

Remember, It's not how you start but how you finish.  So Stay Tuned the Journey has Begun...

H.O.T. #HonoringOurTemple

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Pink with a Purpose!: In My Heart

Pink with a Purpose!: In My Heart: Proverbs 22:6  Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. As a child my mother knew the importanc...

In My Heart

Proverbs 22:6 Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.

As a child my mother knew the importance of what was needed for me. My mother understood that in the ages of 2-5years that was a time period of my life where I was explorative, curious, and aware of my surroundings. If my mother encouraged self-sufficient behavior she knew I would develop a sense of autonomy, the ability to handle problems on my own. Between the ages of 2-4 is when the child takes on their first interest. For instance if a child grows to be musically gifted most likely he/she took a strong interest with playing with drums, using a remote as a microphone, or using various objects to create sound. As a parent how will you, or did you support that first interest noticed in your child? 

My mother took notice to the quietness, and way of humility of my demeanor, and understood I needed to understand my will and purpose. My mother would take two seconds out of each day and ask this question, "Nickia where is Jesus?" I would respond "In my heart" For many years as a child I literally thought there was a man living inside of my heart. That was okay, because when I would face difficulties or needed to hear from God I would speak to that man I knew lived in my heart. The comfort and answers I received was instant, and when I would hear the voice of God there was nothing my mother, father, man or woman could say that would instill doubt. 

On August 5th 2011 when I learned of my diagnosis I thought back as a child speaking to the spirit of God that still lives within my heart. I spoke of all the possibilities that Doctors spoke of, with the possibility of the cancer spreading from my breast to various organs. I told the Lord we are both aware of where the tumor is, and I trust you to keep that malignancy right where it is. As soon as that faith was activated the heavens opened, and when the Doctors performed surgery they weren't aware that my God had already done so. The tumor was noted aggressive but did not spread. So the scar lateral to my right breast is a beautiful sight to see, it is a reminder to me that Great is thy Faithfulness! While lying on that stretcher waiting for the anesthesia to complete its function, I could hear the voice of my mother asking me, "Nickia where is Jesus?" Before closing my eyes I would softly whisper, already in the position of looking up, in my heart.

I don't know what your situation may be, but ask your Heavenly Father to wrap you in his arms, he said we are covered with his feathers. In your place of despair know that if you allow him he is right there with you, as close as your next breath, as close as the blood running through your veins, and as close as your heart beats. He's in your heart.

Saturday, July 7, 2012


The voices speak.                   "I don't know how I'm going to make it" 

"What if I don't pass?"         "The report of the Doctor reads a death sentence" 

                   "Who's going to be there for me now?" 
                                    "What do you mean you don't love us anymore?" 

"But I was molested"               "I was abused"           "My innocence was taken" 

              "I've done more wrong than right"                     "They say I don't qualify" 
"I've been lied to"                       "I've been lied on"                                  "I am a liar" 

"But he hurt me"                  "But she hurt me"  

"They told me I couldn't"                           "They said I wasn't good enough"

 "But I've been scarred"                               "I'm afraid"

 "So now what am I going to do?" Shh.....They say the teacher is quiet during the test, so why are you talking?


Sunday, May 27, 2012

Step Over It!

Deuteronomy 31:8 It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed

God is the reason I am here today. 
Not just here as a body, but I am here of a sound mind, with the ability to blog, walk, talk, and feel. I know God did not have to bring me through that battle of Breast Cancer, but he did, and I am thankful to him for seeing fit for me to live.

In the beginning when first learning of my diagnosis God told me I was healed, and because he said it, I had to act on it. Acting on it involved activating my faith. Activating my faith involved me believing despite of.  I have overcome the worst parts of my journey, and though I still have some hills to climb before finishing this race completely, I am not fearful. Fear cannot reside where the spirit of the Lord dwells.

With all that I have been through it has placed a lot before me to continue and overcome to this day.This journey is not a cake walk, nor has it been smooth sailing. It takes work. BUT! As the scripture reads it is the Lord who goes before me. Why should I worry about tomorrow, next week, month, or year?  My God has already cancelled the assignment of the enemy.  Though one will say no, he has one that will say yes. He said I will be with you. Because he is with me whom & why should I fear? He said I'll never leave you nor forsake you. That means I am literally never alone. God don't allow my eyes to open, if I can't feel your presence, so thank God he chooses to be with us.

When your life changes unexpectedly there are things to deal with in the aftermath that you weren't prepared to handle. But Thank God his word says it is he that goes before us. My purpose on this earth is to please the Lord. One of the greatest gifts I can offer unto the Lord is to trust him when I don't have. I am like the little old woman that gave unto the Lord just two coins, but still I trust him. Trust him when I'm told its uncertain. Trust him when I have forgotten what the heat of the sun feels like. Trust him when I can't see it before me. Father place me in the spirit realm because in the natural I see the unlikely. He said I am with you, never leaving nor forsaking you. That's all I need to get by, that's all I need to get through, that's all I need to make it.

I look at life with only seconds on the clock to take your best shot. Time is of the essence and it's not promised to neither of us, so what are you going to do when the ball is passed to you? Financial Hardship is passed your way. Are you going to take the shot into Financial Freedom? The report of a malignancy, HTN, Lupus, or any attack against your health is passed your way. Are you going to take the shot believing you're healed? Words of destruction were passed your way. Are you going to take the shot into your Destiny inspite of? I don't care if it's financial bondage, your fight to live, or the everyday battle of the mind. It is Beneath You..It may have been passed to you, but there is seconds on the clock, take the shot, look down at it, and Step Over it! 

Monday, March 5, 2012


I attended a funeral today, but no tears were shed. Some of those that were among me expressed their hurt, screaming aloud how they couldn't live day to day. Many were leaning on each other in agreement that what is now loss now disturbs their sense of comfort. Even still the preacher spoke with such an authoritarian tone. He stood on the pulpit looking into the eyes of each who were mourning, letting them know it's easier to let go then hold on. "But how could this be?" One woman yelled, "I'm not ready to move on!" Then there was another sudden outburst. "I'll never be strong enough to face this" You don't have to rely on your own strength the preacher declared. Be weak as you may for the Lord's power is made perfect in your weakness he stated. "You don't understand Mr. Preacher" she shouted. "The choice is mines, I'm not ready to deal with the unknown!" As for me I couldn't take it anymore. Here I am dressed in the purest of pastel exemplifying Life, and yet I am surrounded by many clothed in what tells their story of gloom. I made my way in front of the casket, faced the crowd & quietly spoke of truth.

Here lye's a mockery of your self-control, being, and your sense to be whole. Stood in the way of our greatest achievements, your ability to do, discover, and experience. It has sucked the life out of us suffocating one leaving no air to consume. Life has called & yet you still sit amongst the hearing impaired. Haven't you looked upon and beyond the mountain top? Your vision uncompromised, so take a look! I have no tears to shed. Close the casket quickly, & meet me at the site of burial, for it awaits. That's right you too place your flowers & say your final goodbye. The preacher then concluded with the final benediction. Ashes to ashes and dust to dust. As we all said Farewell to FEAR.

I'm not sure when you've given birth to it but I encourage you today to Mother & Father it no longer. So What! Let them call the Law Enforcers. I'll stand as your witness. It was a matter of life & death. It was simply Self Defense.

    Psalms34:4  I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.