Thursday, July 12, 2012

In My Heart

Proverbs 22:6 Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.


As a child my mother knew the importance of what was needed for me. My mother understood that in the ages of 2-5years that was a time period of my life where I was explorative, curious, and aware of my surroundings. If my mother encouraged self-sufficient behavior she knew I would develop a sense of autonomy, the ability to handle problems on my own. Between the ages of 2-4 is when the child takes on their first interest. For instance if a child grows to be musically gifted most likely he/she took a strong interest with playing with drums, using a remote as a microphone, or using various objects to create sound. As a parent how will you, or did you support that first interest noticed in your child? 


My mother took notice to the quietness, and way of humility of my demeanor, and understood I needed to understand my will and purpose. My mother would take two seconds out of each day and ask this question, "Nickia where is Jesus?" I would respond "In my heart" For many years as a child I literally thought there was a man living inside of my heart. That was okay, because when I would face difficulties or needed to hear from God I would speak to that man I knew lived in my heart. The comfort and answers I received was instant, and when I would hear the voice of God there was nothing my mother, father, man or woman could say that would instill doubt. 


On August 5th 2011 when I learned of my diagnosis I thought back as a child speaking to the spirit of God that still lives within my heart. I spoke of all the possibilities that Doctors spoke of, with the possibility of the cancer spreading from my breast to various organs. I told the Lord we are both aware of where the tumor is, and I trust you to keep that malignancy right where it is. As soon as that faith was activated the heavens opened, and when the Doctors performed surgery they weren't aware that my God had already done so. The tumor was noted aggressive but did not spread. So the scar lateral to my right breast is a beautiful sight to see, it is a reminder to me that Great is thy Faithfulness! While lying on that stretcher waiting for the anesthesia to complete its function, I could hear the voice of my mother asking me, "Nickia where is Jesus?" Before closing my eyes I would softly whisper, already in the position of looking up, in my heart.


I don't know what your situation may be, but ask your Heavenly Father to wrap you in his arms, he said we are covered with his feathers. In your place of despair know that if you allow him he is right there with you, as close as your next breath, as close as the blood running through your veins, and as close as your heart beats. He's in your heart.

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