I've always understood that scripture but never had an understanding for myself personally. Until now. It's amazing as I look back over the years I always wanted to do something to change some part of me. After birthing two children, one of each sex, what a blessing, and without complications with myself or my babies, an even greater blessing. I always wanted to do what's right for the sake of others which included my children. Doctors advised I breast feed versus formula for a host of reasons so without question that's what I did. It didn't matter if it was comfortable for me or not for this pain will be endured because of. It didn't matter if I loss the firm purky shape of my breast because it is no longer about me. But! After all that was said & done you look in the mirror and decide hummm.... I can do some things to change this & that and OMG why are they like that? I would be so much happier if! I remember spending crazy money on products that could possibly rid me of the stretch marks until I realized these stretch marks represent what I did right as a carrying mother. For every soda I refused to drink, and every vitamin, veggies, dairy, water I continued to consume caused my unborn to grow healthy as expected month to month. With the growth caused the stretching of the skin, so as I look at my two I realize it's all good, took one for the team:) However, I remember not being able to see pass those breasts of mine. It's funny because at one point I even got approved for financing a procedure called mastopexy which basically uplifts, and firms. I was so excited and so ready to pay this $50 a month for 36 months until my Aunt which quietly listened in on my plans shut it down! She said Girl don't you finance with that company you better work out! What! I want results Now! That's what I thought, but instead I listened to her advice, and so glad that I did. Who knew no one but the Lord, that unnecessary money would have been invested at the age of 22. At the age of 35 I would take on a procedure that I won't have to pay monthly for nor will I be considering it for cosmetic purposes. One of my best friends told me don't worry they served there purpose, which was breast feeding my children. How true! I'm more than thankful for that. I once wanted something to look & feel better about myself, not knowing I would later need that something in order to live. I'm so glad that even at that young age I didn't choose to rebel, and learned how to accept myself & love me. No doubt I had to go through all that in order to have something to reflect back on to be where I am today. Where is that you ask? At peace.....
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